lj lj lj..wee. weee..

sorry for the last post bitin tlaga. hak! ntamad paku eh.. bsta illgay ko den yun.
hmm..

im currently hir at MIS office SBMA. ojt aku dito.
6 of us are from AMA that are having the training. well we got different divisions kaya hnde kme mgkksama.

i was assigned hir sa Orthogeographic. hmm pang ARCHI nga yun dito eh. maps, locations. etc etc. so far im doin fine coz uhm there arent much things to do hir.

chel, macoy and bunnykins wer assignd at the data center.
nadz and almar at the tech support!. waw. gusto nmen den dun eh. hehe troubleshooting mtinde. in other werds. technician ng mga pc dun.. haha.. la lang. para masiyahan k man lang at nkkpagana ka ng mga pc. well pc's are the life of most people today. kaya yun.


as for my tragic luvstory.

hir it goes.

paul and avy.
hapi. loving each other so much..

out of nowhere. pops out this elf- and boys vox . (and to you two! i dont care if you both read this.)

i know that they were frends. casually texting, chatting. .. as usual i got jealous. sleezy jealous of her being sweet when she posts some comments on myspace. and me. i wanted to know if she was a threat . so i made frends with her. and she was uhm nice. so i trusted her. hmm.. days have passed and uhm i was able to sense that somthing was wrong.i pondered rily rily hard trying to guess and pop out the answer that was boggling all in my head.was it a new crush, a new lover, etc. etc. and because im studying i tend to spend more time in school rather with him. i wasnt neglecting him. that is if he understands and agrees with me. so they fell in love. and i was a freakin idiot not knowing their uhhmm thing.

he confessed. it just blurted out from his mouth. i cried. haha. tinde ko nmn pag hnde. iyakin aku eh..so un.

i asked him. "mahal mo b xa?" and he says nothing. fuck! i know what that means. i told him to choose.

cge hulaan nyo kung cnu ha. eto tip.
paul and avy = 3 years of solid bonding. through thick and thin. sa lhat ng kagaguhan supotahan lang.

paul and alex= 3-4 months of texting and chatting ata.

and the answer is.... tatat.
alex.

my world went bOom. sapul yun tsong.

eh d pinandigan nya yung decision nya. pero before that. noon noon pa. ang sbi nmin kahit nu mngyre. nnjan pden kme para sa isat isa. interms na kahit hnde n eros love yung sa relationship eh filial love ay nndun pden. we treat each other like family. kaya anskit lang at gnto.basta we had promises. my promsises will i keep. may not all though. in one side i gotta move on. yung gnawa nya. tsk isnt acceptable anymore. i want him to learn sumthing. i dont know if what i doing is best for whom. i did my part. i pushed it trough held him so tight. but my love isnt enough for us to make things ryt.
my thanx to the people who gave advices and uhm some are radical but then you made me smile.

i hadnt told my mom. nobody knows at home.
well. ewan ko. my bond den ksi sila with paul kahit c titay ku.

basta. i will always be a friend to paul. pjong ko. the love i hav 4 u will i keep. i know that hnde ngaun maayos to. ive made my decision to have space. uhmm for many reasons. i wanna grow and mature independently. nging dependent ako sau n sobra. db? yu cared for me like a child so closely yuv watched to guard me with various things. bad things.
pero i gotta stand up alone for now. kelangan eh.
we wud be btter people somehow pag gnto. ma i explore nten yung mga ibat ibang bagay dito sa mundo. ngaun. if in the end, and everything fell into place. waw. my God. i thank you.